Note: When things go wrong, what hope do we have? Borne of pain and heartache, my friend’s newest song points us to the hope we can have. In this guest post, Artur MacLellan explains the pain that inspired his song, and he shares his music video with us.
I remember sitting in the hospital on August 27th, 2014 with my fiancee Laura, and the two families crowded into the waiting room. It had been 4 agonizing months of waiting, wondering, and praying. Even though we knew what the outcome was going to be, we were all waiting to hear the verdict.
Was Josiah born? Was he still alive? Did they get to spend a few precious moments with him?
You see, Josiah’s parents found out in April that maybe there was something wrong with him. The tests came back positive for a neural tube defect. When the doctors ran some more tests, they found that Josiah had a hole at the base of his skull, was missing his stomach and bladder, and his kidneys were not working. He had a rare genetic disorder called Meckel-Gruber Syndrome. Most babies with this syndrome do not make it to term.
But Josiah’s parents decided that he was a gift from God and refused to terminate…and Josiah was a fighter. He made it to the c-section scheduled a week before his due date. On Wednesday, August 27 at 10 AM, Josiah Emmanuel was born – absolutely beautiful with perfect little fingers and toes. Another consequence of MG Syndrome is under-developed lungs.
Josiah died an hour and a half later in the arms of his father, surrounded by his aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents.
While we were spending long hours in the waiting room, I was thinking:
Why did this happen? How did God allow this to happen? How can Josiah’s parents go through this?
I was admiring Josiah’s parents (my future brother-and sister-in-law), and how they drew closer to each other and to God through everything. I was thankful that they were able to spend a few precious moments with him before he passed. I was praising God that things went as well as they could, given the circumstances. While I was thinking, a melody and lyrics came to mind that I just couldn’t shake:
“Waves are crashing all around me
Fear is pulsing through my veins
When all hope is lost and I’m surrounded
I will trust in you”
After singing it out, it just seemed right to create a song that was inspired by Josiah to honor him, and create an outlet for what God was working in me through the circumstances. Those first lyrics eventually became the first verse to a song called “Sing over Me.”
The next day, I showed it to Laura. From that point on, we worked on the song together. The basis of this song is from Zephaniah 3:17:
“The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing.”
We constantly are singing songs of praise and worship to God, but the thing that we often forget is that he is singing a great huge song of salvation and redemption over us through the cross of God’s only Son.
And we also gained inspiration from Revelation 21:4:
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more,
neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore,
for the former things have passed away.”
We know that Josiah is in a better place and our mourning will cease when we can be with him again.
While this song has ministered to us over the last 6 months, we pray it will minister to you, too. (Make sure to click the sound on.)